There’s a silent joy to be had when being alone, being with the one person who matters the most, the one person who knows you best inside and out and never stops to judge. There’s a silent joy in knowing the one who needs your love the most, is the one who is also giving you all of their love, at once, unconditionally and timelessly, effortlessly.
I have all this love to give to the world, but right now I’m keeping it all to myself.
I need this time for me. It’s time that I took care of me by just being me, by discovering who I am through my own intentions and not by exploring myself through my relations with others. Taking care of me means taking care of me without allowing the influence of others, especially those that aren’t going to help me discover me. I want to be able to take my five minutes to myself and only be thinking about me, not reflecting upon the day ahead of me or the day behind me, the relationships that were, the relationships that are or the relationships that will be me. Just me, all me. Imagining grad school and the possibility of a job where I call the shots. I make the big decisions. I dream of a day when I can be happy just being me. A day where I love me unconditionally and not because I have to, but because I want to be, because I find myself to be a fascinating, worthwhile individual with a head planted firmly upon broad and sturdy shoulders and a powerfully strong heart, fully intact. Perhaps my head will still be in the clouds and my heart still on my sleeve, but I’ll be all the wiser and a bit more hesitant. I’ll have a better sense as to whom my heart belongs to and whom it does not.
Simplicity in our lives and serenity in our hearts
I will have that simple life one day and I will know peace in my heart. I will love the person that is, the one always there for me, always within, waiting for me to acknowledge her again, love her again.
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